Words of Others

Words of Others

3/31/2011

The truth of the matter

That others can observe

Is that even when I’m silent

I keep my precious words in reserve.

Speaking doesn’t come that easy

So I’ll wander through my mind

And I listen oh so quietly

And see what I can find.

The words of others echo

In circles in my head,

The fear that I won’t get them out

And the fear that they won’t be read.

So obvious, so plain in me

The things that I can feel,

I carry close this empathy,

Others emotions I conceal.  

The Silence

The Silence

Date Unknown

The silence is unbearable,

In the dark and lonely night,

I sit silently bundled up

As I long to turn on the light.

My eyes keep wandering

As I worry in my head,

My fears of the next day

Are what keep me in my bed.

I try to keep it hidden

In the total darkness,

But I want someone to find me,

And show me my true bravery.

The silence is a phantom thief,

Quietly stealing my mind,

I’ll just lie in the darkness,

Hoping for a sign.

I lay screaming in the blackness,

But nobody can hear me,

I can see the search light,

But me, no one can see.

Hard Day

Hard Day

10/7/10

Misery loves its company

People tend to say.

Through experience I find this true

As I struggle through another day.

I find the more alone I feel

The more I wish sadness on others

Leaving a sour taste in my mouth

This is a feeling I don’t treasure.

Every day I feel more alone

Like I don’t have friend in the world

But the more I sit in silence,

The more I feel as if I’ve been swindled.

No matter how hard I pretend to be alright,

My soul is full of sorrow,

But I push myself ruthlessly forward

And try so hard not to wallow.

Though I often find I want someone

To reach out and give me a hand

Until the day someone notices me

I’ll puff out my chest and withstand. 

Eternal Silence

Eternal Silence

November 11, 2010

Silence…

I sit in the silence of the ever waning moon,

And wait for the day that will come all too soon.

The day that I know will eventually come,

The day when I will no longer see the sun.

So quiet…

The autumn day is so quiet and empty,

And as I sit there in silence I know that I am ready.

The end is finally drawing near

But now I know there is nothing to fear.

Eternal…

The eternal peace is coming to me

And now I know I will finally be free

From this quiet and silent world

So I shall now die with my wings unfurled.