Friday, March 27, 2015

Heave and Breathe and try not to Scream

Heave and Breathe and try not to Scream

So many things to be stressed about
Where do I even start—
It’s all falling apart.
Crumbling into pieces,
Disappearing into dust—
A bulldozer ran it over
But I know that I must
I must go on and face the danger
Face the anger
And all the pain I feel
I know that I must be stronger and pull apart the fear
About a future so uncertain
That’s crumbled into the sea
A mighty tsunami rolled me over
Without remorse at my daunting plea.
I try to breathe in any air
But all I get is water,
Water that fills up my lungs
An event that does not augur
Well for how I’m handling
The storm that’s headed my way
So I heave
And breathe
And try not to scream
As I face each and every day.
Where will this long road lead me?
What hope do I even have
Of making  it down the river
And finding my footing on dry land?
In a future so uncertain
I can only hope that all goes well
And work as hard as possible
To make it out of this trek through hell
In a fire so unbearable
I can’t see a single thing
Everything around  me is shimmering
And I can’t take the unforgiving sting
Of flames licking across my chest
And burning down my face
So I heave
And breathe
And try not to scream
As I try to make all haste
Only to come across another obstacle
It seems everything stands in my way
What do I do? What do I do?
This pain just won’t go away.
Yet the tears refuse to fall
And I can’t seem to let myself heal
As the emotions get ever stronger
My head is starting to reel.
I can’t breathe
I can’t scream
I can’t even feel anything real,
When will it end
When will I bend
Because I don’t have a back of steel.
It hurts
It hurts
I can’t stop the burn
I can only go so far
Until I reach a dead end
And I must defend
The life that I hold so dear.
My only option is to continue
And push as hard as I can
To pierce the dead end
And maybe mend
But I watch the whole plan
That was my future start to
To crawl
Away and into the dark.
I must continue
I must press on
Until I reach the end
No matter how far
So I force the air
Through my chest
And heave
And breathe
And try not to scream.

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