The Future Ahead

The Future Ahead

5/10/10

As I look ahead of me

At the path I must follow,

I quiver in my boots

And at times I just feel hollow.

The future looms ahead

And I have no idea what to do,

The sky looming forever onward,

So high and free and blue.

But free I am not,

I am trapped in this body,

As I clutch at random straws

Trying to avoid folly.

But then a cool breeze

Gently pushes its way forward,

I breathe a sigh of relief

As I start to move onward.

Finally a thought came to mind

Just as forth right as a creature,

There is one thing we must not be afraid of

And that thing is the future.

If you fear the future

Then you can never move on,

You will strive forever forward

As you try to get away from the dawn.

The Best Poems

The Best Poems

4/12/2012

The best poems

Are the ones that remain

In your head.

The poems that

Never get written down

On paper.

The words that

Run through your mind

But are forgotten.

Lost in

The tumble, the rumble,

The rush of life.

Lost in

The vastness and dark recesses

Of your mind.

Lost before

You can even put

A pen to paper. 

Take Off That Mask

Take Off That Mask

Date Unknown

She was always hiding

Behind her veil of make-up,

I was her friend so

I said, “Please take off that mask.”

She refused to listen,

We started falling apart,

Her eyes no longer glistened

Behind that awful mask.

I just couldn’t stand it,

She always tried to hide.

She said she wouldn’t be popular,

If she took off her mask.

She yelled at me

When I suggested it,

Why couldn’t she see?

All her make-up is is a mask.

She claimed she needed the make-up,

Without it she was ugly,

She would cry on my shoulder,

But she kept the mask.

We really began to separate,

We saw less of each other,

It was lonely at night

Thinking about her mask.

I pleaded her to take

Off her layers of guilt,

Piled on with make-up,

That is now her mask.

Her true self is hidden

Under those awful layers,

If only, if only

She’d take off her mask.

We shared a bond

That shattered into pieces,

We walked a different path,

Mine without a mask.

I still miss her sometimes,

But now I’m over it,

But even in my dreams,

I still see her mask.

Stop

Stop

4/8/2014

Many a night I sit in silence—My brain

Ticking, tocking, ticking

And I stop—but move again,

Continuing forward,

Onward,

My thoughts colliding

In a multitudinous conglomeration

Of stress.

Worry, worry, working

My brain doesn’t stop ticking

And no matter what I try

It—just—won’t—stop—

There is no rest and like a pest

Ripping into my mind

It doesn’t stop.

So I let it run its course into the pitch black night

Until my eyes finally—sink—closed

And it—can all—stop—

Party Idolization

Party Idolization

10/1/2014

What has infected our society

That we choose to idolize those who are wrong?

Why is it that the people who always party

Are those about who we sing our songs?

“Yo this goes out to all you kids

That still have their cars at the club valet and it’s Tuesday,”

It the intonation of an idolized singer,

We praise this attitude and bow down

But what is it that makes this song a winner?

“Last Friday night…think we kissed but I forgot…”

An ode to those who party,

But since when is blacking out, “skinny dipping in the dark,”

“Yeah I think we broke the law…” a good thing?

Sure, being laid back, and having fun

Is a good quality to have

But when it gets to the point that you do wrong

That’s when your tone goes flat.

Freedom of movement, freedom of thought,

Is this what is idolized?

But if it’s blacking out and breaking laws

How will our society stay stabilized?

Breaking the law is not a joke,

It’s not something to brag about,

These are those who go to jail,

The ones who are ALWAYS figured out.

Those who drink too much liquor

And continue ‘til all goes black

Are those who go absolutely nowhere

Until others must pick up their slack.

When songs about resisting rehab

And going home with strangers are common,

I fear for our society

So please someone give me a good argument!

Why can’t we sing about scientists

Play piano to a musical genius,

We should sing odes to heroes,

Not about those who are blatantly rebellious.

In what manner is this rebellion good?

How does it benefit anyone?

All it gets you is poor grades in school,

A black cloak that dampers your fun.

But the problem with that idea

Is those partiers who get bad grades

Grumble and blame it on teachers,

On the ones who are getting paid.

It’s not the teachers fault when you’re sick

From drinking too much beer.

If you miss too much class you fail

So get your ass in gear.

But the world won’t get any brighter

If you happen to make it through school,

You also can’t skip out on work

Because you spent all night at a barstool.

In reality, the partiers are looked down on,

They are the ones who go nowhere,

And grumble about the unfairness of life

Just so you’re all aware.

Not that going to parties is bad,

It can be a good release of pressure,

A good break from the black cloud of life

And for the week ahead, a good refresher.

But when it becomes the core of your life

And all you do is party,

When Katy Perry* is who you idolize

You should probably be wary.

This is not what society should idolize,

We should look up to those who are smart.

Just because you have a smile like the sun

Doesn’t mean you’ll get very far.

Those who are smart are the ones who prosper,

They are the ones who climb the ranks,

The smart ones go somewhere in life

Though as “nerds” they are bullied and pranked.

Though it may be cliché to say so,

The smart ones will be your boss, it’s true,

They can create their own roads in life

Unlike partiers who may misconstrue

Who the real people are to be idolized,

The ones with real virtues,

The ones who do good things with life,

The ones the partiers may rue.

If we want to fix society

Ideas like this must be tested,

Things that really matter in life

Are the things in which we should be interested.

So be wary who and what you idolize,

For life’s not just a game.

Idolize those that make good advancements

And that’s when society will be saved.

*I do not hold anything against Katy Perry, she's just the one that I've heard the most songs on the radio about partying. 

Lies

Lies

4/8/2014

No matter what they say, I’ll be okay

You can no longer hurt me,

So I continue to live to see another day.

I laugh, I smile, and I am gay,

I play and dance and sing,

So no matter what you say, I am okay.

Though my heart got hurt, that’s gone away

I’ve locked it with a skeleton key,

So I will continue to live another day.

I travel my own path because we split ways

And though you may not see

That no matter what I say, I’ll be okay.

In a dark room I sigh the night away

And I try not to hate the he

Who forces me to live to see another day.

He left me alone and there’s hell to pay

But since I can’t toss him into the sea

No matter what I say, I’ll be okay

And continue to live to see another day.

Home Leaving

Home Leaving

4/4/2011

When I leave this place

Never to return,

Would you even show

Me your concern?

Would my last laughter

Resonate down the halls?

Will my essence remain

Like a picture on the walls?

Would my name, my soul

Still echo from lips?

Or will I be erased

By a solar eclipse?

And if my name remains

How long will that last?

When will we move on?

And stop living in the past?

But I move on,

I know that I must

Because I know you won’t

And that I can trust.

Still I know that I’ll be loved

And I’ll never disappear.

I have left, but that doesn’t mean

That I am no longer here.