Floating in the Ocean

Floating in the Ocean

1/6/2015

The seas are now changing and I must be strong,

I hold the wheel steady though so much could go wrong.

I’ve begun to feel dizzy, I can’t keep my head

But I have so few options, no fallback plans instead

Of my falling, my vessel’s drifting off course,

I grip only the wheel and hope it doesn’t get worse.

I can’t see the shore, there’s no land to be seen

As I drift steadily off course, I can’t contain the scream

Of horror and terror, the desperate pleas

To weigh down the anchor and get out of the seas.

I’m floating in the ocean, no land to be found,

I cannot see sunlight and my feet can’t touch ground.

The storm keeps on brewing that threw me off course

So I turn to the heavens, and pray for recourse

But nothing has changed and the quest only gets harder

But what choice do I have but to find some smarter

Plan to reset my path and I must go somewhere

So I pull out a map and push away despair.

I must draw a new course and make it my own,

Though I fight through rough waters, and the seeds I have sown

Of my drift in the ocean, but I can put it to right,

I’ll find a way through the darkness and turn on the light,

Through the clouds and the shadows, through wave after wave,

I’ll fight mighty monsters and make myself brave.

I’ll journey through unknown with no end in sight

But I know I can do it if I put up a fight!

I’ll find land again and find my own place

Though I may be treading water, gladly I’ll face

A future that’s uncertain, a black wall of rain,

I’ll push past the lost love and push past the pain

To a land of great beauty where I know I belong.

The journey may be rough, uncertain and long

If I find my own happiness it cannot be wrong,

So though it may be hard, I have to be strong,

Even if that means my float in the ocean I must prolong

Because one day I’ll reach shore where I can burst into a song

Of joyous occasion where my future is plain

Where all my uncertainty has been strangled and slain.

The Road I Travel

The Road I Travel

8/20/10

Hills and valleys,

Buildings and cars,

The places I see,

I’ve traveled so far.

This new road I travel

Terrifies me,

But if I don’t walk it

I’ll never be free.

So I continue on

Putting one foot in front of the other,

And keep on moving,

So I can move further.

I put the past behind me

As I search for my goal,

I follow my path

And try to be whole.

I must find myself

As I struggle each day,

I look toward the future

And make my own way.

The future is blurred,

Unfocused and uncertain,

But I will force myself forward,

Until I close my own curtain.

The Future Ahead

The Future Ahead

5/10/10

As I look ahead of me

At the path I must follow,

I quiver in my boots

And at times I just feel hollow.

The future looms ahead

And I have no idea what to do,

The sky looming forever onward,

So high and free and blue.

But free I am not,

I am trapped in this body,

As I clutch at random straws

Trying to avoid folly.

But then a cool breeze

Gently pushes its way forward,

I breathe a sigh of relief

As I start to move onward.

Finally a thought came to mind

Just as forth right as a creature,

There is one thing we must not be afraid of

And that thing is the future.

If you fear the future

Then you can never move on,

You will strive forever forward

As you try to get away from the dawn.

Party Idolization

Party Idolization

10/1/2014

What has infected our society

That we choose to idolize those who are wrong?

Why is it that the people who always party

Are those about who we sing our songs?

“Yo this goes out to all you kids

That still have their cars at the club valet and it’s Tuesday,”

It the intonation of an idolized singer,

We praise this attitude and bow down

But what is it that makes this song a winner?

“Last Friday night…think we kissed but I forgot…”

An ode to those who party,

But since when is blacking out, “skinny dipping in the dark,”

“Yeah I think we broke the law…” a good thing?

Sure, being laid back, and having fun

Is a good quality to have

But when it gets to the point that you do wrong

That’s when your tone goes flat.

Freedom of movement, freedom of thought,

Is this what is idolized?

But if it’s blacking out and breaking laws

How will our society stay stabilized?

Breaking the law is not a joke,

It’s not something to brag about,

These are those who go to jail,

The ones who are ALWAYS figured out.

Those who drink too much liquor

And continue ‘til all goes black

Are those who go absolutely nowhere

Until others must pick up their slack.

When songs about resisting rehab

And going home with strangers are common,

I fear for our society

So please someone give me a good argument!

Why can’t we sing about scientists

Play piano to a musical genius,

We should sing odes to heroes,

Not about those who are blatantly rebellious.

In what manner is this rebellion good?

How does it benefit anyone?

All it gets you is poor grades in school,

A black cloak that dampers your fun.

But the problem with that idea

Is those partiers who get bad grades

Grumble and blame it on teachers,

On the ones who are getting paid.

It’s not the teachers fault when you’re sick

From drinking too much beer.

If you miss too much class you fail

So get your ass in gear.

But the world won’t get any brighter

If you happen to make it through school,

You also can’t skip out on work

Because you spent all night at a barstool.

In reality, the partiers are looked down on,

They are the ones who go nowhere,

And grumble about the unfairness of life

Just so you’re all aware.

Not that going to parties is bad,

It can be a good release of pressure,

A good break from the black cloud of life

And for the week ahead, a good refresher.

But when it becomes the core of your life

And all you do is party,

When Katy Perry* is who you idolize

You should probably be wary.

This is not what society should idolize,

We should look up to those who are smart.

Just because you have a smile like the sun

Doesn’t mean you’ll get very far.

Those who are smart are the ones who prosper,

They are the ones who climb the ranks,

The smart ones go somewhere in life

Though as “nerds” they are bullied and pranked.

Though it may be cliché to say so,

The smart ones will be your boss, it’s true,

They can create their own roads in life

Unlike partiers who may misconstrue

Who the real people are to be idolized,

The ones with real virtues,

The ones who do good things with life,

The ones the partiers may rue.

If we want to fix society

Ideas like this must be tested,

Things that really matter in life

Are the things in which we should be interested.

So be wary who and what you idolize,

For life’s not just a game.

Idolize those that make good advancements

And that’s when society will be saved.

*I do not hold anything against Katy Perry, she's just the one that I've heard the most songs on the radio about partying. 

Home Leaving

Home Leaving

4/4/2011

When I leave this place

Never to return,

Would you even show

Me your concern?

Would my last laughter

Resonate down the halls?

Will my essence remain

Like a picture on the walls?

Would my name, my soul

Still echo from lips?

Or will I be erased

By a solar eclipse?

And if my name remains

How long will that last?

When will we move on?

And stop living in the past?

But I move on,

I know that I must

Because I know you won’t

And that I can trust.

Still I know that I’ll be loved

And I’ll never disappear.

I have left, but that doesn’t mean

That I am no longer here.